Chinese Wisdom

Oh yeah.
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Oh yeah.

I have come to the realization that many of my limitations in life are the direct result of failing to make a choice. I have always envied people who have one true calling. They love animals, so they become a vetrinarian. That is a good life.
I don't know where I'm going with this, I'm just saying...
Catharsis: a sudden emotional breakdown or climax that constitutes overwhelming feelings of great pity, sorrow, laughter, or any extreme change in emotion that results in the renewal, restoration and revitalization for living.
It is garbage day today. I found some stuff I probably should have thrown out a long time ago.
I found forms with letterhead from the Catholic Church. The green form talked about requirements for photography and videography. A business card fell to the floor and contained the name of a string quartet that, long ago, someone thought just might be perfect for what we were looking for. The blue forms held important dates with meetings with priests and other couples that we never went to.
The folder from Chubb insurance welcomed us to the Chubb family and contained the details of our insurance policy. The insurance policy was for a 2/3 carat diamond ring. My mom did me the favor of disposing of that stone for me. The insurance forms got thrown on the top of the recycle bin, on the off chance that some thief might snoop through it at the dump and find her name and address and choose to steal her identity and make her life a living hell for the next seven years or so. Not that I'm vengeful or anything.
Christmas cards. Birthday cards. Little notes. A stuffed animal. Good fucking bye.
I want to say that I don't know why I didn't get rid of this stuff a long time ago, but I do. It was painful to see all this stuff one last time. If the house had burned down, I would have been glad to see those things burn with everything else. It was hard to pull the trigger myself though. Harder than it should have been, anyway.
In the end, it felt great.
Going a Short Way To Make A Point (Washington Post Article).